To all of you who think I’m crazy, or over the top, or a witch or a heathen, I’m not writing for you.
I’m writing for me.
I write for myself–to explore what questions I have, the uncertainty inside, and the discovery of what answers and questions the world offers me.
I’m not writing for power because power isn’t what I’m looking for. I already have power. I’ve had it since I was a child: the power to Be, the power to Do, the power to Love.
While I may not have answers for you, what I can offer you is friendship along the way. Many of my readers have found me on Facebook (where I’m at everyday) and we’ve become friends. Some of us are as close to best friends as two people can get. Some give me a laugh when things are tough. Some of them enlighten me to ways of thinking and books and blogs that I never knew before. We’re all growing and learning together. We’re a community, not a hierarchy or a totalitarian regime.
I’m not your pastor, your leader or your Old Testament God.
I may not be your pastor, your leader or your Old Testament God but I am a Bitch, a Feminist, a Sexual Being. I am a strong woman; I am empowered; I am contemplative; I am smart. But (those of you who call me a heathen/witch), I’m not yours for you to dictate who I am, what I should live like, or what I should believe in. Those decisions are just not yours. A person’s beliefs or lack of beliefs are his or her own. They’re none of your goddamned business.
And so it is with people’s personalities: we’re not here for you to change. My friends here are who they are and they’re amazing human beings. They’re not here for you to try to bully or badger or misunderstand. Here, we have an open community, but we also have rules in place to make sure people feel safe.
So, in the fashion of the past months, Fuck You Troll. If you’re trying to convert us (from our de-conversion or liberation), you can just leave.
For those of you who are out of the cult, you’ll probably be familiar with a TV show called South Park. If you’re not, here’s a video clip of Whale Whores, Season 13, Episode 11. The reason I’m showing you this is because my boyfriend has gotten the phrase “Fuck You Dolphin” stuck in my head. So, then when I say “Fuck You Troll”, I’m of course saying it in the South Park Japanese Dolphin Killer’s voice. And no one is going to think this is as funny as I do, but Fuck You Dolphin.