I’m leaving my job this week to pursue my dreams and it was because of my job that I was able to come to the conclusion that I needed to do anything to make the leap into what I love doing. Some people are perfectly happy being corporate. I’m not one of them. I’ve come to love the people I work with and I’m really sad I have to say goodbye to some of them but I know I’m doing the right thing for me. On days I doubt if I’m doing the right thing, one particular coworker I’ve grown close to sends me inspirational quotes and gives me pep talks. I’m scared to take this path, which is funny, because I know it’s the best thing for me to do.
EARLY THIS SUMMER I had a decision to make: Would I stay in this city regardless of what kind of job I had to take? Or would I prefer to finally apply to graduate school with the plan to write my book and get teaching experience? Despite sounding like it should’ve been an easy decision, it was hard. I have three pets and I’ve settled down where I’m at. In my twenties, I moved several times and the one thing I’ve wanted to have in my thirties was stability and a place to finally call home. I’ve grown close to my friends here and I have what some people would consider a dream lifestyle. I’m near the beach. The weather is amazing. I have very little to complain about.
Except my job and the fact that I was getting further and further away from blogging and writing the deeper I got into my job. The more skills I gained doing projects, the less qualified I seemed for what I wanted to do. At least to employers. Despite knowing that I’d take a significant pay cut walking away from what I was doing, I knew I had to do it. I’ve always read stories like this and wondered if I’d ever make the leap. I wasn’t ready, until this summer.
I SPENT the past three months picking my top graduate programs and on Friday I completed my GRE. I’ve finished up applications and now I just wait a few months until I find out where I’ll be moving to. My top schools ended up being University of Wyoming, UC Davis and UC Riverside. I also applied (and will apply) at a few smaller programs that have good reputations and good teaching programs. As I wait, I’ve decided to move closer to friends and family and work on my freelance writing and editing work. I started work as a freelance editor this year and work has been steady. I’m so glad I can finally focus on it now without burning out. I just can’t bear to keep veering off the path that will lead me to my dreams so this decision feels really great in so many ways.
It’s a new year and a new start for me. I’m going to be dedicating all of my time on the goal of building my career as a full-time writer and I’m excited to finally make this leap. Big things happened last year for me and as they were happening, I realized that my current life wasn’t very conducive to them. I had a brand new platform on which to write stories and I had no time to work on any of them. I had to make changes.
SO CHEERS to new starts and going after our dreams. I hope the new year holds amazing things for each of you and I hope to hear all about them!