Soldiers for Christ

I’ve been speaking to a friend of mine almost nightly about some deep topics–you know, letting someone into some of those secret caverns people haven’t really gone in awhile. He spent years in the military and after I’d explained some of my feelings to him about my cult experience (and yes, cried, which I haven’t actually done in awhile), he shared some of his military experiences. It was sort of comforting to know that we related so well.

He spoke to me in particular about some intense combat training he received in order to keep him and his team hyped and going, running on adreneline and getting revved up easily. He said it served a purpose in combat situations because they’d be up for days at a time, operating on little to no sleep. What happened when he left the military and resumed civilian life was that he realized he could easily get really amped up over something and it was hard to mellow himself out or not find himself reactionary.

I could certainly relate. On a much smaller, less intense scale, there are similarities to my cult experience and some aspects of military life.

For example, when we joined we went through a few intense weeks where we were emotionally stripped of certain barriers and rights, and we were checked into dorms with a strict set of rules and guidelines to live by each day. Then, each day was regimented as if we lived in barracks (they were dorms) and we had dorm leaders coming in each morning and night making sure we were in bed and out of bed on time (on the dot), dressed in something suitable (our uniforms), in prayer (on the dot), at breakfast, cleaning up (to perfection), and so forth to a specific schedule.

Our training was not combat, but it was all about hype and getting prepped emotionally for a “spiritual battle.” We were soldiers for Christ and we trained like such. When a conference would come up, we’d spend a month prior to the conference fasting and praying intensely, on top of studying, marketing, networking, planning and rehearsing our performances. Our rehearsals were labor intensive, because we were putting on an entire production–a creative representation of Christ–and those productions could last for hours, but typically the conference success or failure landed on us so we were hyper aware of every detail from the sound equipment and microphones to the lighting set up and placement. At any moment, I was on call with the speaker information, his or her whereabouts, their car and hotel information and their personal assistant on the line, if needed.

We’d stay up for days on end before the conference getting ready for “spritual battle” and by the time the actual event rolled around, we’d be operating on very little to no sleep. Coffee and energy drinks became our constant companion, and so did the smiley-happy-hyped up Christian sales persona that we were known to be. We had to pull the smiles out because we believed what we were pushing onto these teens. We believed it intently. We believed we were at war for their souls.

2 thoughts on “Soldiers for Christ”

  1. Hey Lisa,

    I have read all your post on Master’s Commission. And I do respect your position, but I had a COMPLETELY different experience. I’m sorry it was so crappy for you. I mean yea they didn’t allow dating if it was your first year and they didn’t want us listening to secular music but they never burned my stuff… thats crazy. And I NEVER felt like I was stuck there and they never used God to keep in or make me feel guilty or anything.

    And calling it a cult…thats a bit of a stretch. I mean maybe that’s what is was like in Phoenix but in Atlanta it was nothing of the sort. I’m not gonna call all New Yorkers rude cause a guy from New York was rude to me or call all Hispanics Illegal cause some are here illegally (i’m both from NY and Hispanic thats why I used them for examples lol). It’s not fair to do that. Master’s Commission is discipleship progam, period, nothing more. Do some people change and abuse that? Yes, I’m sure they do. Same as churches and business. Nothing is perfect.

    But I am really sorry you had such a crappy experience. And I hope you are doing great now! 🙂 I really hope to hear back from you. Feel free to email me cjcruz212@gmail.com

    1. Please see the FAQs where I explain in detail why Master’s Commission is in fact a cult and is in fact abusive from Lloyd Zeigler down.

      I am doing great now. I live in CA now. Here’s what I do when I’m not working or blogging.

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